A few random thoughts

Life is like a pen drive, you keep downloading things into it till it gets full, and then you pull it out; that is the end of life; that is a semi-colon, and then your files are deleted and you are plugged right back in, in the same space, oblivious of what existed in that pen drive before you. the same space - a different life. a sentence amongst many separated by semi-colons. Music is the conductor of time; it is endless. It is what connects the memories of one sentence to another, a syntagmatic connector - a binder. It is our only way of connecting with our past and future lives, and that is why it does what it does to us. We are on the satellite of a giant sky. The sy is a sphere of infinite radius - infinity itself. For it is space, and when we recognise space, we recognise infinity. For instance, when you look at the number of characters in the line 'I am the one', we see that there aren't 11 (including the single quotes), but 14, coz the spaces in between are also characters, as present as the letters that we recognise. This is why a pause in music is just as important as every note that is played for any length you might choose. The same is the case with space - a funny word in English, coz we use it to define things that are beyond the perception of our naked senses - outer space and yet we use it to talk about everything material (I have some space left in my cupboard, my house is very spacious); and then we talk about things that don't exist. We see space because there is nothing in it. When we recognise space, we are one with the one. It is one continuum, we are part of a continuum. Space is nothing but time bent sideways, caught in a knot, a never ending loop with bubbles like us on its surface. Time is wave and space is matter. For us, we have both, but are more stuck in matter, and don't recognise the waves in us. Music is our only link to the waves in us.

Of all your senses, it is sight that can reach the farthest. Our Universe (all that exists for us), therefore,is everything we are able to see. As we see things only with the help of light (the fastest thing around, we can only see things that light brings to us and for this, it takes us as long to see them as it takes for light to cover the distance between the object and us. If something is 1 light year away, then it will take us a year to know the state in which that object is now. If that object wre to explode, the knowledge of the explosion will reach us only a year later. Now, the Universe is only a certain number of years old (Let's say X). So, for us to be able to see something that is Y light years away, Y must be less than or equal to X (assuming light existed at the beginning of the universe. Any object at a distance of Y greater than X would be invisible to us. So there is a radius of X light years, beyond which we cannot see; that is our Universe as of now. As time progresses, we can see an extra bit of the Universe. We can see 3 million kms extra in every direction each passing second. Time may be nothing but a means to catch up with the Universe. Once it reaches the end, maybe things wll start retracting again, instead of expanding as they do now, and this might be a periodic motion.

Now, if everything 'began' at some point, then, for thngs to go beyond the black line, either we are not at the centre of the universe, or things travelled faster than the speed of light once upon a time, and even if we are not at the centre of the universe, they must have travelled faster than light at some point, coz we can't see the end at any angle. So the big-bang must have made things travel faster than light, and things are grdually slowing down, because of which light is catching up with this expansion. As a result, every passing minute, as light overtakes this expansion, we are able to see more and more of the Universe (obviously only with the help of telescopes n stuff)...

The Big Bang

Language is such a waste of time, but that is still the only way we can communicate. Thoughts arise in our heads, in the realm of ideas. All we do when we talk is choose words to signify what we want to express. In the process, much is lost in terms of time and in terms of expressing what we truly want to express. As a result, there is misunderstanding, and waste of time. Why can’t we simply read each others’ minds, something like social networking, like facebook, where all we have to do is sort thrugh the maze of consciousnesses and select the one we need to communicate with, and then we get all the information we want and this is how communication would be most efficient. Instead we use language, where ideas are once translated to words, which are then received by the listener (or reader) and then translated to ideas again. Communication takes place – inefficient and ineffective.

I wondered why this would be so. Then a thought stuck me. Do we really want to share all our thoughts with everyone? No we don’t. Different people will have varying levels of information they’d want to share with people. There are always things you’d want to keep to yourselves – encrypted. So we can have certain things open for everyone to view, certain things for only a few people we want to share things with, and certain things that are merely for ourselves to know, and then of course, there is the realm of the unknown.

We must look at each of ourselves as unique carriers of information – some of which is privy to only us – no one else knows things that we know. And we are but bubbles extended from one, the true I, we are just a collective I, each mistaking ourselves to be the I. Life is nothing but realization. I think, therefore I am. If I didn’t ‘real’ise things the way they are, I wouldn’t be alive. Life is just a process of making things real, and death is nothing but a process of de-realising. With effort, some people can de-realise, that is let go of these pseudo notions of reality that we have, and get united with the true One, even when they are ‘alive’ – this is what we probably call Nirvana – a bridge between reality and dereality. We must learn to de-realise things. Things are ‘real’ because we ‘real’ise them. That is the trap of the senses.

The question then, is why we are trapped the way we are. Why does the need exist for us to think that this world, as is translated to us by our senses and by language, to be considered real. Why can’t we be in the realm of the I, not separated from each other? This is because we are nothing but what we can analogise as encrypted files. Each of us is a resource, we are a space where encrypted, secret things have been stored, and the I alone has access to all this information, hidden from all the other bubbles. We must eventually break free from this encryption – to gather all the true information, and to de-realise ourselves, and when each one of us de-realises ourselves, we de-realise the I, which is currently wrapped in a shell with mirrors all around it, thinking this to be reality. What we actually view as the future, or the road ahead, is actually what we have left behind. Time is inverse, it is not the way we look at it. We are but constantly looking into a mirror, one that reflects unto us the things that have happened. This is ‘real’. We need to step out, break free from this illusion, derealise things around us, step outside the mirror, for then the ‘I’ will escape from the mirror too, and then we will have the Big Bang! We are the big bang. I am the Big Bang. I is the Big Bang – the beginning of time. The beginning of history, the beginning of existence. We are moving away from it, whereas that is our true final destination. We must derealise this. One way we continue ‘realising’ things is by procreating. Our consciousnesses are carried forward by our progeny. Some people might want to derealise themselves by refusing to procreate, by refusing to add to the sides of the infinite polygon. Non-living things are just beigns that have already attained the state of de-relaisation. They have no identity of themselves, they are one with the true I.

We are all connected the way the sides of a polygon with infinite sides are. Change one thing on one side and it affects, to varying extents every other side of the polygon. This is the relation between fate and destiny. Destiny is nothing but the cumulative effect of all the sides – the stars, the trees, the objects around us, the people, every movement must have a consequence, air particles are moved even as we speak; a ball aimed at our face prompts us to move our hands to protect ourselves. We may choose to react whichever way we want, that is free-will, but that fact that we move or we get hurt – that is destiny. We are living in a constant web of interplay between free-will and destiny.

Knowledge brings more power, more free will, you control destiny to a greater extent. True knowledge of the ‘I’ would bring you in contact with the Onewhere there are no ‘many’, no reflections, just I, where free-will and destiny are united. Where Time is one, free of consciousness, free of conflicts, free of sadness, free of emotions, free of confusion, just the true, eternal Big Bang!